April 22nd, 2010 Earth Day

Okay, so my favorite radio station 101.9 The End has gone belly up. So now it is itunes time for me all the time. This is why radio is dying. They get rid of good staff and funny people and replace it with crap "Gen-X" stuff from the 90s. Hello, let's lose that decade of music already!

Okay, rant over. Yesterday while D was taking his morning nap, K wanted to color. He brought me his bag of crayons and asked me to open it. After opening it and giving it back to him he looks at me and says in a seriousness, "Thank you, honey." I looked at him and asked him what he had said and he repeated himself. He makes me laugh. I always call him honey and apparently it has stuck.

D is getting closer and closer to walking. He pushes his little walker around the house and laughs the whole time he is doing it. Once I can get him to stand on his own he will be on his way. He will stand for a few seconds and then grab for something to hold on to. Closer and closer....

I have therapy today with Brian. I'm not sure how it will go. I'm tired of feeling like crap all the time. However, I've come up with a plan to get back on track food/weight wise. I know that my therapist wouldn't like it if I were to tell her about it. But I'm not planning on telling her about it. It will get the nutrients needed for the baby and sustain me. But hopefully it will help me lose everything I have gained.
Plan is: 1 yogurt (110), 1 c great northern beans (299), 2 cups cabbage (66), 1.5 c fruit with vitamin c (73-86), 4 oz salmon (168), & 8 oz v-fusion juice (110) = total: 839 give or take 13.
Adding an hour of exercise after the kids go to bed is the next part of the plan. The kids are in bed by 8-ish usually, so I can totally do this. That will give me a little while to wind down before going to sleep. I will be turning off the computer at 5 to spend more time doing things that matter.

This is completely doable, then I can do the same thing while I nurse. Hopefully that will give me enough milk to nurse. If not, I can up it just a little, otherwise we'll have to figure something out.

April 8th, 2010

Today is day just like any other. I am, of course, anxious about everything and I am unsure as to how to curb that tendency. The boys are keeping busy in their room by taking out everything that they own and throwing it on the floor. D is sitting his 10-month-old self in the middle of the pile and rifling through everything. K is taking things out and building the pile up. Both are content and happy. It would be nice to be that content.

I feel tired most of the time. I'm hoping that I will snap out of it this week. I'm now 13 weeks along in the pregnancy and still sick most of the time. But I am able to function and take care of the boys and that is all that matters. I am going to need to suck it up and go to the store either today or tomorrow. That means leaving the house, which I don't enjoy. However, we are out of several things and I need to take care of it.

Beautiful day today. It really is. I'm hoping that I will be able to let K go outside and play for a while. It is so much fun for him and he needs the vitamin D.